But it happened, I had an emotional breakdown the first day in my apartment. I don't know if it was saying bye to all the friends I made, coming to the realization that I had to do everything by myself and becoming overwhelmed, or from lack of sleep. Whatever the reason, I cried. Not like a few tears, like BOO HOO, snot & boogers coming out of my nose, and eyelashes dangling off my eyes. It was disheartening and I just wanted to go home cuddle with Wally and Facetime Jonathan. I just felt so lost, stressed, and no one was around me.
I was so excited for this journey and my main source of information was from a blog where a married couple did EPIK together. They had so much fun, and I know this journey just started but I really wish Jonathan was here to experience this with me. I called him during my breakdown and he told me I was strong and could do it. That instantly made me wipe my tears away, put on my big girl pants, and I went out into town.
I am living in Namgu in Daegu and found out I live so close to everything I will possibly need. I even found a gym so I can continue to work out and stay in shape. I was able to buy cleaning supplies, groceries, and also set up my own wifi. I am so thankful for being able to have someone who's been there for me since the beginning. I probably would be laying in a big messy heap of clothes if not for him...wondering about all my life decisions and why I'm such a mess. But I just have to keep reminding myself, that my situation is by far not the worse. I also know that thousands of others have done this before, therefore, so can I.
A fellow teacher gave me great advice saying, "During the first month, don't make any rash decisions. You will feel so great one day, then so much regret. Just ride out the first 30 days and you should be more calm." So far it's been 10 days, so only 20 more days to see how I really feel. At the moment, I'm feeling pretty good after eating stir fried radish. Learning to cook is a skill I hope to pick up here.
